I have noticed this: home does not begin with affection. It begins with familiarity.

It announces itself quietly. In small, almost forgettable moments. The first time I can drive somewhere without checking directions. The first morning I wake up and don’t have to rehearse how the day will work. The moment the landscape stops feeling like something I must navigate carefully and starts feeling like something I know how to move within.

Now, love no longer carries that tremor of fear. Whether we are side by side or separated by schedules or miles, I no longer measure our connection by constant closeness or perfect communication. Silence does not alarm me. Distance does not threaten me. I trust him. I trust us.

This is not a love born of exceptional resilience or unique temperament. It is learned. It is practiced. Military families have been loving this way for generations, through letters written across oceans, long stretches of silence, and returns that were never guaranteed. We are not inventing this kind of love. We are carrying it forward.

Funerals you have to travel to ask something different of you—not because the loss is greater, but because getting there is never assumed, and presence itself becomes something that must be negotiated rather than expected. They are not the kind where you grab your keys and go, or where presence is automatic. They begin instead with a quiet reckoning: before grief is allowed to surface, you must first determine whether you are even able to be there.

There is a specific weight to the small years that is hard to explain unless you are living inside them. It is not the tired of a long day or a busy season—it is the tired that settles into your bones and stays. The kind built from interrupted sleep, sticky hands, endless questions, and the quiet weight of shaping a tiny human into someone who will one day walk out into the world on their own.

Sometimes the laugh comes because something is genuinely funny. Sometimes it comes because crying would take longer to recover from. And sometimes it comes because there is no other reasonable way through the absurdity except to step straight over it, laughing as you go.

There is a particular relief that comes from knowing where you are meant to stand in a day. Not because the day is easy or especially gentle, but because it is known. The constant decision-making quiets. The internal bargaining softens. You are no longer asking yourself, at every turn, what comes next.

It comes the way most things do in this life: quietly, almost unnoticed, slipping in beside the routines already in motion. The same coffee mug waits on the counter. The same kitchen light hums on before the house stirs. The same life continues, intact and unfolding, even as the calendar insists we call it something different.

And uncertainty, as this year ends, is not abstract. It is layered and present, already pressing forward. Change is coming — movement, transition, another reshaping of what home will look like — and military life has taught me that no amount of planning removes the unknown. Every year arrives carrying something new, whether we feel ready or not.

This is not the pause at the end of the season, the exhale that comes when everything is over. It is the breath taken while standing in the doorway, hands finally still, before stepping back into the noise and movement of what is to come. It is the quiet recognition that nothing more can be added without asking something back in return, and that continuing to press forward will not necessarily make what follows more meaningful—only more exhausting.

Tradition, I’ve learned, is where memory becomes motion — a continuity of light passed hand to hand, glowing differently in each new keeper’s palm. It honors where we come from and welcomes what we discover along the way.

There is no right answer to the question of where you “should” be this December. There is only the truth of what your family needs, and the quiet courage it takes to honor that.

The holidays never sweep in all at once; they arrive gently, on tiptoe. For us, the beginning is marked by a carton of eggnog waiting in the fridge until Black Friday, by music humming through the kitchen, and by the tree rising in its corner while the children scatter boxes of ornaments like treasure.

There are seasons in this life when miles stretch longer than we’d like—deployments, TDYs, or even the ordinary separations of being scattered far from the people who know us best. In those seasons, I’ve learned that gratitude behaves like a seed: small, intentional, sometimes planted in rocky ground.

I recall my first deployment as a spouse as though it were only yesterday. I was ten weeks postpartum, tired in both body and spirit, still trying to find my rhythm as a new mother. The days leading up to departure were a blur of sleepless nights and tender hours, when I wanted every moment to count but felt too drained to hold it all. The goodbye itself was painful, but what nearly undid me was the sight of the calendar — a stretch of time marked only by uncertainty. Four months was promised, but it could stretch to six. That kind of open horizon is heavy when your heart is already weary.

Each November, as Veterans Day draws near, I find myself reflecting on the many faces behind the word service. It’s a word that has quietly shaped every season of my life — as a daughter watching her father lace up his boots, as a wife who knows the rhythm of duty days and homecomings, as a mother teaching her children what it means to belong to something greater than ourselves.

Walking beside command as a spouse is its own season of life. It is not about fancy events or borrowed status—it is about being the partner of a leader, adapting as family life bends around leadership demands. When the phone rings, Beloved must answer, and my role is to adjust, to hold space, and to steady our family in the midst of that constant push and pull.

Sometimes it creeps in quietly, a whisper that says, you should be doing more, being more, achieving more. Other times it crashes in like a wave, leaving you feeling small, inadequate, and suddenly very tired. Comparison is sneaky that way—it convinces us to measure our lives against someone else’s highlight reel, forgetting that we don’t see the mess behind their closed doors. It is, as they say, the thief of joy. And I have let it steal from me more times than I’d like to admit.

Across the force, families are adjusting and re-adjusting. Airmen are stretching savings and spirits. Civilians are balancing loyalty to the mission with the weight of unpaid days. And through it all, we keep hearing the same quiet truth: it shouldn’t be this hard to serve with heart.

Over time, I have come to understand that traditions, too, must gently yield as life demands. Some years we embrace them fully, reveling in every detail. Other years, like the one when I was heavy with Bean and carrying the weight of a long TDY alone, tradition meant nothing more than spreading pumpkin butter on bread and calling it enough. And it was.